it's funny.. it really is just losing a best friend, someone i shaped my life around, someone i love more then anything else. i miss him lots but.. it's for the best i think. we'll see how it all plays out.
my caseworker said something great.. that we wouldn't let our best friends treat us like we like people in relationships treat us. we only tolerate so much from them until we're done, but with significant others, we just keep making excuses for them, keep holding on when we shouldn't.
what hurts the most is not being treated badly, but the fact that you know you're letting it happen.