Monday, February 14, 2011

school work house work

wow.. i never knew it'd be this hard to go to school
and have a family
well for one thing, i'm glad that i'm going to matc
so that i can do it all at my own pace
so there isn't much studying at home
unless i want to get ahead which of course i do
but i can do that at my own pace too
i don't know what i'd do if i had to do it at a
normal class pace
i barely know where the time goes in the day already
what with the school work, house work,
everything else, plus being away from rowan so much
sigh.. i hate spending so much time away
but i'm glad i have something to do with my time
i'm just keeping my sights set on finishing as fast as i can
getting it over with so i can get on with things
start working
making my own living and stuff :]
sigh.. this grown up thing is strange.

Saturday, February 5, 2011

custody

so here starts the real beginning of the whole custody crap i guess
i hate it sooooo much
i spent a good hour yesterday just bawling my eyes out
by myself in my apartment
thinking about all this court crap
about everything that's happened to lead up to it

i really just don't wanna do this
but i know i have to for my son
it's just soooo emotionally draining

and i've just got so much going on
like starting school this monday
starting to balance a social life with
being a parent..

ugh.