"In a talk today someone quoted brigham young saying 'our families aren't ours. God has temporarily entrusted us with them to see how we treat them. And depending on how we treat them, that determines if god will us be a eternal family.' and that's true. God is rowans father." -Bailey
It hurts every day to think that I brought Rowan into this world with someone who doesn't come close to being a proper father to him.. but this makes it hurt much less.
Hopefully when Rowan's older, I can explain this to him and he'll understand.
I just want him to always know that no matter what, I want the world for him... and those were my intentions all along.